its been two years since we lost our precious callie grace. how in the hell did we get to two years??? seems like just yesterday this nightmere began, but then again, I fell like i've been living this nightmere for ten years.
i miss her so much... not just today, but everyday. I didn't want her passing date to eat me up, but today it really is. will the pain ever get easier?? will my wounds ever heal?
i still lay awake at night and wonder if things could have been different. i still FIRMLY believe the respitory lady should NOT have unhooked Callie during her 11pm therapy session. I still FIRMLY believe that is was caused Callies respitory failures. Damn you respitory lady, DAMN YOU!! You took my baby from us.
chesney brings us such joy but NOTHING will EVER replace our Callie. She holds such a special place in all our hearts... in everyones heart whom she met. granted we only had her for 37 days but in those 37 days, she touched more lives than most people due in a full lifetime. shes the reason i continue to raise awareness and preach my TDAP info! i dont care who gets sick of hearing it, its just what we have to do in order to keep her spirit alive.
i sit here with a heavy heart and teary eyes but am thankful for those 37 days. callie taught me and craig so much. i am honored to be her mother. i am touched that everyone holds her in their hearts to. and am super proud of chesney for being such a good little sister to her big sister. she LOVES her big sister!
until we meet again callie, momma loves you!
